July 14th, 2004

I'm gonna spill my heart...

Hopefully you guys can help me out. I'll tell you my story.

I'm in love with someone. He's been my friend since 4th grade, and I've loved him since I met him. He moved away 5 years ago, and he's coming to see me for the first time since he left. I'm nervous, and scared. I can't tell him that I love him, because he'll freak out like he did last time, but I can't not trust my heart. I share the stories and emails with my friends, and they think there's more. I wish that I knew, and sometimes the way he talks to me I think he does love me, but I don't know. A while back he started crying because I said I didn't want to be his friend anymore. Does that mean anything?

I don't know what to do. Any advice? Like what should I do when he comes to see me? Play it cool? or tell him how I feel?
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